she don't want to break up with her boyfriend because she don't have another boy beside her though her boyfriend is flirting with other girl or hitting her.

is she stupid?bimbo? i am really really sick with her. and sometime i want to punch her mouth whenever she's talking bout him. bimbo. and she said if i want to see her leave him find another handsome man to be with her. still you are stupid idiot fucking idiot boogie.rgbkuhehf

down and out

aku rase penat sangat. bukan disebabkan melakukan kerja berat. cuma penat dengan semua. i feel so low right now. aku sangat penat di sini tetapi akan bertambah penat jika aku kembali ke sane. kadang-kadang aku harap sangat aku boleh ignore saje semua orang apabila aku pulang ke sane. tetapi aku tahu, itu memang akan membuat orang lain kecewa dengan aku. kadang-kadang aku harap sangat aku ini selfish yang teramat sangat. dan ya, aku kadang-kadang memang tidak memikirkan perasaan orang lain, tetapi tidak setiap mase. aku penat juga asyik menjage perasaan orang lain tetapi mereka tidak pernah berbuat begitu untuk aku. hari-hari aku di rumah menguncikan diri di dalam bilik. meng-online-kan diri, mengadap laptop, ulang kaji itu ini[not too much] and,..

i think i hurt somebody. but i feel too jaded to ask. maybe this is one of my worst vein. i knew i hurt someone, but i never tried to to show that i'm sorry. well, he never tell me so. and i acted like i did nothing wrong. is not that i don't feel nothing. i feel sorry. but my head has too much and i don't know how to handle it. I'M SORRY. that's all i could say. i feel nothing when i say it and i know you would say "it doesn't matter anymore". what more i could say? i can't make it right. if i have a power, i swear i will do whatever i can to make it right for you. and again, i'm sorry. truely.

bukan masalah2 ini saje yang mengganggu, tetapi banyak lagi dan aku hanye mampu diam. kerane aku tidak tahu bagaimana lagi care untuk keluarkan semue. tetapi aku rase lega sedikit sekarang. terime kasih bloggie wiggie. kadang-kadang aku harap kamu ini makhluk yang boleh di sentuh dan di pukul supaye aku boleh melepaskan amarah aku kepade engkau. sudi tak engkau? okay. i'm kidding. bye.

ouh yeah, one more, i don't feel lonely to be frank. people might think that way bout' me. but i'm not. have a nice day everyone. not only for today, but for tomorrow and another tomorrow. =)

p/s: about the above picture, err, i know it didn't suit about my post, lol. just to make me laugh. xD

err. 19?

um.hi there. i am 19 years and 1 day old now. almost leaving my teens age. kinda scary i guess. people expect us to be matured as we grow up. i don't know how exactly the "matured" type. years by years, there's always thing that change in my life. i don't know how i can describe it. it's like, life taught you what's life. there's a lot of thing that i don't really understand. i want to know the answer, but sometimes, i don't want to know and i don't know why. people come and go, people change. and i guess i am changing a bit. my mind grow wider. i become more stronger. i am tough. more tough than before. but hey, there's something about me that didn't change. no need to mention it. hahah. the fact is, i'm always be the dreamer. i want my dream become reality, but maybe some of it i must keep it as a dream. ouh just keep smiling.

um.this year, i just love-hate this year. i don't really get what i really want. but i thanked to Allah. coz' i still here, i still breathing, i still can see, i still can hear, i still can walk and i still can scream. though sometime i'm fucked up with people around me at the college. i can't stop them from talking shit about me, all i can do is doing my own thing. i don't talk too much to people, and still they..grrr.they are the bullshitter.okay. i should stop bubbling.

i will always remember my past. my childhood. the memory with the people of my past, always be the greatest. even there's a tears, bloody yelling, and hahah..too much. happy 19 hawadah.

and someone keep giving me this type of smiley these few days; (= and thanks. =)