err. 19?

um.hi there. i am 19 years and 1 day old now. almost leaving my teens age. kinda scary i guess. people expect us to be matured as we grow up. i don't know how exactly the "matured" type. years by years, there's always thing that change in my life. i don't know how i can describe it. it's like, life taught you what's life. there's a lot of thing that i don't really understand. i want to know the answer, but sometimes, i don't want to know and i don't know why. people come and go, people change. and i guess i am changing a bit. my mind grow wider. i become more stronger. i am tough. more tough than before. but hey, there's something about me that didn't change. no need to mention it. hahah. the fact is, i'm always be the dreamer. i want my dream become reality, but maybe some of it i must keep it as a dream. ouh just keep smiling.

um.this year, i just love-hate this year. i don't really get what i really want. but i thanked to Allah. coz' i still here, i still breathing, i still can see, i still can hear, i still can walk and i still can scream. though sometime i'm fucked up with people around me at the college. i can't stop them from talking shit about me, all i can do is doing my own thing. i don't talk too much to people, and still they..grrr.they are the bullshitter.okay. i should stop bubbling.

i will always remember my past. my childhood. the memory with the people of my past, always be the greatest. even there's a tears, bloody yelling, and hahah..too much. happy 19 hawadah.

and someone keep giving me this type of smiley these few days; (= and thanks. =)