hi. currently at perlis right now. my last day in terengganu was my worst day ever. thing that i wish never happen again,might happen. i only can pray that it won't happen.please God.don't let it happen. and i feel so guilty about it.

here,i feel like i will suffocate. i'm tired. everyday i will acting like everything is going right around me. i'm laughing,make a stupid joke, and i do everything that will make my friends think i'm okay.(yeah a lil bit hypocrite) in fact that, i really want to hide from everyone, i want to ignore everyone around me, i just want to sit all alone, listen to my mp3, ignoring people that is calling my name, i want to run, run,run. just run until i am barely breathing.

and i am sick keeping this on my own,but i never wish to let it out.

i'mscaredthatshemighthassomeoneelse.isawherholdinganotherphonewhichiineverknewiteverexists. ifeelguiltynowfornottellinghim.ijustwish,myeyeswerenotrightthattime.

Tuhan,die buat aku kelihatan bodoh.